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I am loving @ Tuesday, September 30, 2008
it's been one month.

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I know what's right.

alkane, alkene, arene, halogenoalkane, alcohol, phenol, aldehyde, ketone, caboxylic acid, ester, acyl chloride, primary amine, amide, nitrile, amino acid.

Scientific facts.
It's all i can ever get.

I think it's time, we give it up
And figure out what's stopping us
From breathing easy, and talking straight
The way is clear if you're ready now
The volunteer is slowing down
And taking time to save himself

The little cracks they escalated
And before you know it was too late
For making circles and telling lies

You're moving too fast for me
And I can't keep up with you
Maybe if you slowed down for me
I could see you're only telling
Lies, lies, lies
Breaking us down with your
Lies, lies, lies
When will you learn

The little cracks they escalated
And before you know it was too late
For making circles and telling lies

You're moving too fast for me
And I can't keep up with you
Maybe if you'd slowed down for me
I could see you're only telling
Lies, lies, lies
Breaking us down with your
Lies, lies, lies

When will you learn
So plant the thought and watch it grow
Wind it up and let it go

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Tuesday, September 23, 2008


We can't be more similar.


Seeing herself 6 years ago.


As we lived under the same roof.


Being disgusted, unappreciative of one another.


How I vow never to become like her.




And I see how I'm becoming like her.


How Vincent Tay entered her life.


So ironically deja vu.




The notes are thrown, the facebook deleted.


One email to say he had found someone and is getting married next year.




I realise I still have a long way to go.







--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Monday, September 22, 2008
i dun want another episode of "avoiding eternal flame for 2 years".

who's calling me an attention whore???

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Sunday, September 21, 2008
Maybe it's the icy glance that rips you apart
Or the attention to detail that suffocates the heart
Maybe it's the dense quiet, the riveting stare
The embittering thought that you can go nowhere
Maybe it's the excruciating truth that no matter what you do
You'll never get someone to give a second thought about you

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Friday, September 19, 2008
and this is my future, nobody else's. when they say the curse of that place leaves everyone with at least one failed subject. I failed two. and u see everyone advancing, u're left behind. who's there to blame honestly. what blame is there to shift around?
so that's all i ever deserve. this past year of heartbreak, rivers of tears, sacrifice.
i know what i want now.
just dont come running to me when u've got daddy issues.
dont come to me for the sex.
dont come to me when u're bored and i'm no longer labelled " YOU KNOW HOW MUCH TIME I SACRIFICE FOR MY STUDIES TO SPEND TIME WITH U?"
and lastly.
you.
i know what sacrifice means. dont make it seem that i owe it to you.

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Wednesday, September 17, 2008
How many times do you have to bump into someone, within a space of how long, within what span of distance, in order for it to qualify as a fated encounter?

How many times do you have to UN-bump into someone, within a space of how long, within what span of distance, in order for it to qualify as a UN-fated encounter?

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Monday, September 15, 2008
Sometimes it's better not to know what you did to turn a friend into a stranger than if you had a full understanding of the reason and there's no one to blame but yourself.

When someone I care about starts digging their own hole, all I do is drop a spade into it, or extend a greased arm.

I could walk away, but I'm too self-centred to admit that I only aggravate matters, that there are others who could offer something that I'm utterly incapable of.

My opinions are hot air on thin ice, and I think I've reached a point, saturated with my own self-loathing and guilt, that although I genuinely care, I really shouldn't bother at all.

I want to give it another try. Sometimes the simplest longings are the hardest to fulfill.

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Sunday, September 14, 2008
the anxiety attacks.
the sleepwalking.
the cold sweat.
the drifting in and out of consciousness in the middle of the night.

i guessed as much.
calm down girl.
even though sometimes it gets unbearable.

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Tuesday, September 09, 2008
i want to talk to a voice.
not a name.
Disappointment? I guess not.
I'm just dumb.

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