Can't take my eyes off from you

I am loving @ Thursday, October 18, 2007

you have no idea how much i needed someone to depend on.
you have no idea how fragile i can be beneath the insecurities i'm showing.
you have no idea, zero idea, how i've seen some girls are taking their boyfriends for granted.
How they're playing hard to get.
How much i detest them that they have a whole list of suitors begging them to be with them.
And yet they're choosing and picking as if grocery shopping.
u think i'm saying it with a sense of pride that i have 2 guys going after me?
is it really so hard to find that someone?
someone whom i know amidst the crazy things surrounding me will still whisper to me " i'm here for you."

And all these walls that i've built all these years.
All these chains that I've padlocked my heart.
All those morphines I've taken to stop my heart from pain
Do i really wanna let them be broken down by him?

I dun love him as a boyfren. I love him as a man.
I dun wanna repeat the same mistakes i made with zirong with him.
I'm giving myself a chance. But now it seems like i shouldnt even have given myself this chance at all.

I just cant rely on anyone anymore. Not him, not even you.
So thank you.
Because i'm so used to living this solidary life alone. Myself.

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