Can't take my eyes off from you

I am loving @ Tuesday, August 16, 2005

I'm not the Lay Koon one year ago. I don't plop down in front of the computer after school and start mass MSN-ing with sonny, KH or rays. I don't bicker with my mum about staying out late on Friday nights. I don't send out and reply smses every single minute.

I just can't bring myself to do all these things anymore. There're things that have and need to be done albeit how much i hate to do them. This is life.

I know that no matter how tired i am from school, i have to take out my notes and revise through. I know that i have to attempt a considerable amount of my maths tutorials so that I wont be staring blankly at my tutors during lessons.

I'm also aware that THEY are instilling a sense of guilt and fear in me that any amount of entertainment, rest, relaxation, break, breather, destress taken can have disastrous effects on my grades.

THEY are insignificant people. Big deal. School ends at 4. Heads to the library and mug till 5.30.

I dunno my nights from days. I dunno my weekends from weekdays.

I'm not complaining. Neither am I accepting what I'm doing. Let's face it. It's like a jail term.

I owe tremendous gratitude to people who have shaped my life. You know who you are. And yes, years later when we meet up maybe all that we can talk about is the past.

Will i still see you again? I dunno. God knows.

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