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I am loving @ Sunday, August 28, 2005
i wanna walk 9.18 km two years later.

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Tuesday, August 23, 2005
To: All Whom I Love

Whatever that you're going through now is painfully agonising. It is so unique that no one else fully understand the depth of the suffering you personally are struggling with. Be it a loss or a separation. It's enough to tear an unmendable hole in your soul. So I may not know how difficult it is for you to deal with it, but I do know it is necessary.

As we move through this sea called life, we leave behind familiar waters that we'll never sail again. It's hard to say goodbye. Sooner or later, the things we hold dear are taken out of our hands. Sometimes gently. Sometimes harshly. But always painfully.

I won't accuse you of being morbid, of not looking at the bright side of life. I know that your pain cannot be ignored. I know you want to be in control of your life. I know you hate to deal with the loneliness, vulnerability, insecurity and unmet longings. I know that all you need is time.

However, I don't want you to become bitter as a result of unsuccessful avoidance from your suffering. I want you to have a soul that, while knowing the meaning of sadness and disappointment, is yet able to remain joyfully alive.

You greatly miss the person who is of irreplaceable value to you. But you have to accept the reality. You can cry, you can rant, you can express everything out in every possible way. It's perfectly normal. I'm sure this experience have let you reconsider what is really important in life.

I know that right now, words are inadequate to express what you need. Nevertheless, I'll still give you a shoulder to cry on, a willingness to listen, and a commitment to stay in silence. Remember, I'll walk with you along this painful path that you must take.




My sincerest gratitude to those who have kept me going despite the destitude and despair I have. We may have scattered far but I'll be keeping all of you close to my heart. God bless.

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Friday, August 19, 2005
Ha. Blogging in my school library. Supposed to be doing duty but slacking =.=. Anyway. Is today friday? Yup. I know because today's the eve of my Econs test. How wonderful.


I simply adore this place. The audacity, atrocity, hypocrisy, gullibility and narrow-mindedness of the people are mind-boggling. Any MJR teacher who teaches them will seriously be contemplating suicide within a week.


Actually i can afford movies on a weekly basis. Sure, i'll sacrifice that amount of time i should be revising my chemistry. Not much harm done anyway.


I don't wish to ruin my long-term goal. Ya. Don't make me forget my purpose. Because I certainly deserve it. After what they will be putting me through in these 16 months to come.


Just wait.
The sweetest revenge will be unveiled.

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Tuesday, August 16, 2005
I'm not the Lay Koon one year ago. I don't plop down in front of the computer after school and start mass MSN-ing with sonny, KH or rays. I don't bicker with my mum about staying out late on Friday nights. I don't send out and reply smses every single minute.

I just can't bring myself to do all these things anymore. There're things that have and need to be done albeit how much i hate to do them. This is life.

I know that no matter how tired i am from school, i have to take out my notes and revise through. I know that i have to attempt a considerable amount of my maths tutorials so that I wont be staring blankly at my tutors during lessons.

I'm also aware that THEY are instilling a sense of guilt and fear in me that any amount of entertainment, rest, relaxation, break, breather, destress taken can have disastrous effects on my grades.

THEY are insignificant people. Big deal. School ends at 4. Heads to the library and mug till 5.30.

I dunno my nights from days. I dunno my weekends from weekdays.

I'm not complaining. Neither am I accepting what I'm doing. Let's face it. It's like a jail term.

I owe tremendous gratitude to people who have shaped my life. You know who you are. And yes, years later when we meet up maybe all that we can talk about is the past.

Will i still see you again? I dunno. God knows.

--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Thursday, August 04, 2005
Darius Danesh - Live Twice

Don't leave now
Not yet
There are words I
Regret
And I'm sorry
Somehow
I only
Wanted to make you proud

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice

When you told me
I froze
It still echoes
In my soul
Please forgive me
If I didn't say
I love you
Every single day

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice

Nobody told me we'd only get one chance
I didn't know that our tide would turn so fast
Why we have to say goodbye I don't understand

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice

I could not let it pass me by
Nothing I give to sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice

We'll meet in another life
If only we could live twice


--------------------------------------------- a>---------------------------------------------------- I am loving @ Tuesday, August 02, 2005
ok.. i'm really gearing up for promos...school's fine now.. seriously.. i'm able to make sense wat's teaching in school now... library has become my second home... although they are a boring bunch of ppl.. 1.5 more years.. it's ok.. it's ok...i'm able to promote.. i'm able to promote... I"M ONE OF THE BEST PW GROUPS IN MY CLASS!!! muahahahah... survey analysis was a job well done... phew... just keep praying.. just keep praying... bangkok trip... wOOOooooOOo Laaa LaaAAAAAAAAa !!!~~~

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